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Part sIX. Deaths diary: 1942. The snowman
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PART SIX
the dream carrier
featuring:
deaths diarythe snowmanthirteen
presentsthe next bookthe nightmare of
a jewish corpsea newspaper skya visitor
a schmunzelerand a final kiss on poisoned cheeks
DEATHS DIARY: 1942
It was a year for the ages, like 79, like 1346, to name just a few. Forget the scythe, Goddamn it, I needed a broom or a mop. And I needed a vacation.
A SMALL PIECE OF TRUTH
I do not carry a sickle or scythe.
I only wear a hooded black robe when its cold.
And I dont have those skull-like
facial features you seem to enjoy
pinning on me from a distance. You
want to know what I truly look like?
Ill help you out. Find yourself
a mirror while I continue.
I actually feel quite self-indulgent at the moment, telling you all about me, me, me. My travels, what I saw in 42. On the other hand, youre a humanyou should understand self-obsession. The point is, theres a reason for me explaining what I saw in that time. Much of it would have repercussions for Liesel Meminger. It brought the war closer to Himmel Street, and it dragged me along for the ride.
There were certainly some rounds to be made that year, from Poland to Russia to Africa and back again. You might argue that I make the rounds no matter what year it is, but sometimes the human race likes to crank things up a little. They increase the production of bodies and their escaping souls. A few bombs usually do the trick. Or some gas chambers, or the chitchat of faraway guns. If none of that finishes proceedings, it at least strips people of their living arrangements, and I witness the homeless everywhere. They often come after me as I wander through the streets of molested cities. They beg me to take them with me, not realizing Im too busy as it is. Your time will come, I convince them, and I try not to look back. At times, I wish I could say something like, Dont you see Ive already got enough on my plate? but I never do. I complain internally as I go about my work, and some years, the souls and bodies dont add up; they multiply.
AN ABRIDGED ROLL CALL FOR 1942
The desperate Jewstheir spirits in my lap as we sat on the roof, next to the steaming chimneys.
The Russian soldierstaking only small amounts of ammunition, relying on the fallen for the rest of it.
The soaked bodies of a French coast beached on the shingle and sand.
I could go on, but Ive decided for now that three examples will suffice. Three examples, if nothing else, will give you the ashen taste in your mouth that defined my existence during that year.
So many humans.
So many colors.
They keep triggering inside me. They harass my memory. I see them tall in their heaps, all mounted on top of each other. There is air like plastic, a horizon like setting glue. There are skies manufactured by people, punctured and leaking, and there are soft, coal-colored clouds, beating like black hearts.
And then.
There is death.
Making his way through all of it.
On the surface: unflappable, unwavering.
Below: unnerved, untied, and undone.
In all honesty (and I know Im complaining excessively now), I was still getting over Stalin, in Russia. The so-called second revolutionthe murder of his own people.
Then came Hitler.
They say that war is deaths best friend, but I must offer you a different point of view on that one. To me, war is like the new boss who expects the impossible. He stands over your shoulder repeating one thing, incessantly: Get it done, get it done. So you work harder. You get the job done. The boss, however, does not thank you. He asks for more.
Often, I try to remember the strewn pieces of beauty I saw in that time as well. I plow through my library of stories.
In fact, I reach for one now.
I believe you know half of it already, and if you come with me, Ill show you the rest. Ill show you the second half of a book thief.
Unknowingly, she awaits a great many things that I alluded to just a minute ago, but she also waits for you.
Shes carrying some snow down to a basement, of all places.
Handfuls of frosty water can make almost anyone smile, but it cannot make them forget.
Here she comes.
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THE SNOWMAN
For Liesel Meminger, the early stages of 1942 could be summed up like this:
She became thirteen years of age. Her chest was still flat. She had not yet bled. The young man from her basement was now in her bed.
Q& A
How did Max
Vandenburg end up
in Liesels bed?
He fell.
Opinions varied, but Rosa Hubermann claimed that the seeds were sown at Christmas the previous year.
December 24 had been hungry and cold, but there was a major bonusno lengthy visitations. Hans Junior was simultaneously shooting at Russians and maintaining his strike on family interaction. Trudy could only stop by on the weekend before Christmas, for a few hours. She was going away with her family of employment. A holiday for a very different class of Germany.
On Christmas Eve, Liesel brought down a double handful of snow as a present for Max. Close your eyes, shed said. Hold out your hands. As soon as the snow was transferred, Max shivered and laughed, but he still didnt open his eyes. He only gave the snow a quick taste, allowing it to sink into his lips.
Is this todays weather report?
Liesel stood next to him.
Gently, she touched his arm.
He raised it again to his mouth. Thanks, Liesel.
It was the beginning of the greatest Christmas ever. Little food. No presents. But there was a snowman in their basement.
After delivering the first handfuls of snow, Liesel checked that no one else was outside, then proceeded to take as many buckets and pots out as she could. She filled them with the mounds of snow and ice that blanketed the small strip of world that was Himmel Street. Once they were full, she brought them in and carried them down to the basement.
All things being fair, she first threw a snowball at Max and collected a reply in the stomach. Max even threw one at Hans Hubermann as he made his way down the basement steps.
Arschloch! Papa yelped. Liesel, give me some of that snow. A whole bucket! For a few minutes, they all forgot. There was no more yelling or calling out, but they could not contain the small snatches of laughter. They were only humans, playing in the snow, in a house.
Papa looked at the snow-filled pots. What do we do with the rest of it?
A snowman, Liesel replied. We have to make a snowman.
Papa called out to Rosa.
The usual distant voice was hurled back. What is it now, Saukerl?
Come down here, will you!
When his wife appeared, Hans Hubermann risked his life by throwing a most excellent snowball at her. Just missing, it disintegrated when it hit the wall, and Mama had an excuse to swear for a long time without taking a breath. Once she recovered, she came down and helped them. She even brought the buttons for the eyes and nose and some string for a snowman smile. Even a scarf and hat were provided for what was really only a two-foot man of snow.
A midget, Max had said.
What do we do when it melts? Liesel asked.
Rosa had the answer. You mop it up, Saumensch, in a hurry.
Papa disagreed. It wont melt. He rubbed his hands and blew into them. Its freezing down here.
Melt it did, though, but somewhere in each of them, that snowman was still upright. It must have been the last thing they saw that Christmas Eve when they finally fell asleep. There was an accordion in their ears, a snowman in their eyes, and for Liesel, there was the thought of Maxs last words before she left him by the fire.
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CHRISTMAS GREETINGS FROM MAX VANDENBURG Often I wish this would all be over, Liesel, but then somehow you do something like walk down the basement steps with a snowman in your hands.
Unfortunately, that night signaled a severe downslide in Maxs health. The early signs were innocent enough, and typical. Constant coldness. Swimming hands. Increased visions of boxing with the Fhrer. It was only when he couldnt warm up after his push-ups and sit-ups that it truly began to worry him. As close to the fire as he sat, he could not raise himself to any degree of approximate health. Day by day, his weight began to stumble off him. His exercise regimen faltered and fell apart, with his cheek against the surly basement floor.
All through January, he managed to hold himself together, but by early February, Max was in worrisome shape. He would struggle to wake up next to the fire, sleeping well into the morning instead, his mouth distorted and his cheekbones starting to swell. When asked, he said he was fine.
In mid-February, a few days before Liesel was thirteen, he came to the fireplace on the verge of collapse. He nearly fell into the fire.
Hans, he whispered, and his face seemed to cramp. His legs gave way and his head hit the accordion case.
At once, a wooden spoon fell into some soup and Rosa Hubermann was at his side. She held Maxs head and barked across the room at Liesel, Dont just stand there, get the extra blankets. Take them to your bed. And you! Papa was next. Help me pick him up and carry him to Liesels room. Schnell!
Papas face was stretched with concern. His gray eyes clanged and he picked him up on his own. Max was light as a child. Cant we put him here, in our bed?
Rosa had already considered that. No. We have to keep these curtains open in the day or else it looks suspicious.
Good point. Hans carried him out.
Blankets in hand, Liesel watched.
Limp feet and hanging hair in the hallway. One shoe had fallen off him.
Move.
Mama marched in behind them, in her waddlesome way.
Once Max was in the bed, blankets were heaped on top and fastened around his body.
Mama?
Liesel couldnt bring herself to say anything else.
What? The bun of Rosa Hubermanns hair was wound tight enough to frighten from behind. It seemed to tighten further when she repeated the question. What, Liesel?
She stepped closer, afraid of the answer. Is he alive?
The bun nodded.
Rosa turned then and said something with great assurance. Now listen to me, Liesel. I didnt take this man into my house to watch him die. Understand?
Liesel nodded.
Now go.
In the hall, Papa hugged her.
She desperately needed it.
Later on, she heard Hans and Rosa speaking in the night. Rosa made her sleep in their room, and she lay next to their bed, on the floor, on the mattress theyd dragged up from the basement. (There was concern as to whether it was infected, but they came to the conclusion that such thoughts were unfounded. This was no virus Max was suffering from, so they carried it up and replaced the sheet. )
Imagining the girl to be asleep, Mama voiced her opinion.
That damn snowman, she whispered. I bet it started with the snowmanfooling around with ice and snow in the cold down there.
Papa was more philosophical. Rosa, it started with Adolf. He lifted himself. We should check on him.
In the course of the night, Max was visited seven times.
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MAX VANDENBURGS VISITOR
SCORE SHEET
Hans Hubermann: 2
Rosa Hubermann: 2
Liesel Meminger: 3
In the morning, Liesel brought him his sketchbook from the basement and placed it on the bedside table. She felt awful for having looked at it the previous year, and this time, she kept it firmly closed, out of respect.
When Papa came in, she did not turn to face him but talked across Max Vandenburg, at the wall. Why did I have to bring all that snow down? she asked. It started all of this, didnt it, Papa? She clenched her hands, as if to pray. Why did I have to build that snowman?
Papa, to his enduring credit, was adamant. Liesel, he said, you had to.
For hours, she sat with him as he shivered and slept.
Dont die, she whispered. Please, Max, just dont die.
He was the second snowman to be melting away before her eyes, only this one was different. It was a paradox.
The colder he became, the more he melted.
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