A good girl. A short history of the Jewish fist fighter

A GOOD GIRL

 
 In November 1940, when Max Vandenburg arrived in the kitchen of 33 Himmel Street, he was twenty-four years old. His clothes seemed to weigh him down, and his tiredness was such that an itch could break him in two. He stood shaking and shaken in the doorway.
 
 Do you still play the accordion?
 
 Of course, the question was really, Will you still help me?
 
 Liesels papa walked to the front door and opened it. Cautiously, he looked outside, each way, and returned. The verdict was nothing.
 
 Max Vandenburg, the Jew, closed his eyes and drooped a little further into safety. The very idea of it was ludicrous, but he accepted it nonetheless.
 
 Hans checked that the curtains were properly closed. Not a crack could be showing. As he did so, Max could no longer bear it. He crouched down and clasped his hands.
 
 The darkness stroked him.
 
 His fingers smelled of suitcase, metal, Mein Kampf, and survival.
 
 It was only when he lifted his head that the dim light from the hallway reached his eyes. He noticed the pajamaed girl, standing there, in full view.
 
 Papa?
 
 Max stood up, like a struck match. The darkness swelled now, around him.
 
 Everythings fine, Liesel, Papa said. Go back to bed.
 
 She lingered a moment before her feet dragged from behind. When she stopped and stole one last look at the foreigner in the kitchen, she could decipher the outline of a book on the table.
 
 Dont be afraid, she heard Papa whisper. Shes a good girl.
 
 For the next hour, the good girl lay wide awake in bed, listening to the quiet fumbling of sentences in the kitchen.
 
 One wild card was yet to be played.
 
 
 
  

A SHORT HISTORY OF THE JEWISH FIST FIGHTER

 
 Max Vandenburg was born in 1916.
 
 He grew up in Stuttgart.
 
 When he was younger, he grew to love nothing more than a good fistfight.
 
 He had his first bout when he was eleven years old and skinny as a whittled broom handle.
 
 Wenzel Gruber.
 
 Thats who he fought.
 
 He had a smart mouth, that Gruber kid, and wire-curly hair. The local playground demanded that they fight, and neither boy was about to argue.
 
 They fought like champions.
 
 For a minute.
 
 Just when it was getting interesting, both boys were hauled away by their collars. A watchful parent.
 
 A trickle of blood was dripping from Maxs mouth.
 
 He tasted it, and it tasted good.
 
 Not many people who came from his neighborhood were fighters, and if they were, they didnt do it with their fists. In those days, they said the Jews preferred to simply stand and take things. Take the abuse quietly and then work their way back to the top. Obviously, every Jew is not the same.
 
 He was nearly two years old when his father died, shot to pieces on a grassy hill.
 
 When he was nine, his mother was completely broke. She sold the music studio that doubled as their apartment and they moved to his uncles house. There he grew up with six cousins who battered, annoyed, and loved him. Fighting with the oldest one, Isaac, was the training ground for his fist fighting. He was trounced almost every night.
 
 At thirteen, tragedy struck again when his uncle died.
 
 As percentages would suggest, his uncle was not a hothead like Max. He was the type of person who worked quietly away for very little reward. He kept to himself and sacrificed everything for his familyand he died of something growing in his stomach. Something akin to a poison bowling ball.
 
 As is often the case, the family surrounded the bed and watched him capitulate.
 
 Somehow, between the sadness and loss, Max Vandenburg, who was now a teenager with hard hands, blackened eyes, and a sore tooth, was also a little disappointed. Even disgruntled. As he watched his uncle sink slowly into the bed, he decided that he would never allow himself to die like that.
 
 The mans face was so accepting.
 
 So yellow and tranquil, despite the violent architecture of his skullthe endless jawline, stretching for miles; the pop-up cheekbones; and the pothole eyes. So calm it made the boy want to ask something.
 
 Wheres the fight? he wondered.
 
 Wheres the will to hold on?
 
 Of course, at thirteen, he was a little excessive in his harshness. He had not looked something like me in the face. Not yet.
 
 With the rest of them, he stood around the bed and watched the man diea safe merge, from life to death. The light in the window was gray and orange, the color of summers skin, and his uncle appeared relieved when his breathing disappeared completely.
 
 When death captures me, the boy vowed, he will feel my fist on his face.
 
 Personally, I quite like that. Such stupid gallantry.
 
 Yes.
 
 I like that a lot.
 
 From that moment on, he started to fight with greater regularity. A group of die-hard friends and enemies would gather down at a small reserve on Steber Street, and they would fight in the dying light. Archetypal Germans, the odd Jew, the boys from the east. It didnt matter. There was nothing like a good fight to expel the teenage energy. Even the enemies were an inch away from friendship.
 
 He enjoyed the tight circles and the unknown.
 
 The bittersweetness of uncertainty:
 
 To win or to lose.
 
 It was a feeling in the stomach that would be stirred around until he thought he could no longer tolerate it. The only remedy was to move forward and throw punches. Max was not the type of boy to die thinking about it.
 
 His favorite fight, now that he looked back, was Fight Number Five against a tall, tough, rangy kid named Walter Kugler. They were fifteen. Walter had won all four of their previous encounters, but this time, Max could feel something different. There was new blood in himthe blood of victoryand it had the capability to both frighten and excite.
 
 As always, there was a tight circle crowded around them. There was grubby ground. There were smiles practically wrapped around the onlooking faces. Money was clutched in filthy fingers, and the calls and cries were filled with such vitality that there was nothing else but this.
 
 God, there was such joy and fear there, such brilliant commotion.
 
 The two fighters were clenched with the intensity of the moment, their faces loaded up with expression, exaggerated with the stress of it. The wide-eyed concentration.
 
 After a minute or so of testing each other out, they began moving closer and taking more risks. It was a street fight after all, not an hour-long title fight. They didnt have all day.
 
 Come on, Max! one of his friends was calling out. There was no breath between any of the words. Come on, Maxi Taxi, youve got him now, youve got him, Jew boy, youve got him, youve got him!
 
 A small kid with soft tufts of hair, a beaten nose, and swampy eyes, Max was a good head shorter than his opposition. His fighting style was utterly graceless, all bent over, nudging forward, throwing fast punches at the face of Kugler. The other boy, clearly stronger and more skillful, remained upright, throwing jabs that constantly landed on Maxs cheeks and chin.
 
 Max kept coming.
 
 Even with the heavy absorption of punches and punishment, he continued moving forward. Blood discolored his lips. It would soon be dried across his teeth.
 
 There was a great roar when he was knocked down. Money was almost exchanged.
 
 Max stood up.
 
 He was beaten down one more time before he changed tactics, luring Walter Kugler a little closer than hed wanted to come. Once he was there, Max was able to apply a short, sharp jab to his face. It stuck. Exactly on the nose.
 
 Kugler, suddenly blinded, shuffled back, and Max seized his chance. He followed him over to the right and jabbed him once more and opened him up with a punch that reached into his ribs. The right hand that ended him landed on his chin. Walter Kugler was on the ground, his blond hair peppered with dirt. His legs were parted in a V. Tears like crystal floated down his skin, despite the fact that he was not crying. The tears had been bashed out of him.
 
 The circle counted.
 
 They always counted, just in case. Voices and numbers.
 
 The custom after a fight was that the loser would raise the hand of the victor. When Kugler finally stood up, he walked sullenly to Max Vandenburg and lifted his arm into the air.
 
 Thanks, Max told him.
 
 Kugler proffered a warning. Next time I kill you.
 
 Altogether, over the next few years, Max Vandenburg and Walter Kugler fought thirteen times. Walter was always seeking revenge for that first victory Max took from him, and Max was looking to emulate his moment of glory. In the end, the record stood at 103 for Walter.
 
 They fought each other until 1933, when they were seventeen. Grudging respect turned to genuine friendship, and the urge to fight left them. Both held jobs until Max was sacked with the rest of the Jews at the Jedermann Engineering Factory in 35. That wasnt long after the Nuremberg Laws came in, forbidding Jews to have German citizenship and for Germans and Jews to intermarry.
 
 Jesus, Walter said one evening, when they met on the small corner where they used to fight. That was a time, wasnt it? There was none of this around. He gave the star on Maxs sleeve a backhanded slap. We could never fight like that now.
 
 Max disagreed. Yes we could. You cant marry a Jew, but theres no law against fighting one.
 
 Walter smiled. Theres probably a law rewarding itas long as you win.
 
 For the next few years, they saw each other sporadically at best. Max, with the rest of the Jews, was steadily rejected and repeatedly trodden upon, while Walter disappeared inside his job. A printing firm.
 
 If youre the type whos interested, yes, there were a few girls in those years. One named Tania, the other Hildi. Neither of them lasted. There was no time, most likely due to the uncertainty and mounting pressure. Max needed to scavenge for work. What could he offer those girls? By 1938, it was difficult to imagine that life could get any harder.
 
 Then came November 9. Kristallnacht. The night of broken glass.
 
 It was the very incident that destroyed so many of his fellow Jews, but it proved to be Max Vandenburgs moment of escape. He was twenty-two.
 
 Many Jewish establishments were being surgically smashed and looted when there was a clatter of knuckles on the apartment door. With his aunt, his mother, his cousins, and their children, Max was crammed into the living room.
 
 Aufmachen!
 
 The family watched each other. There was a great temptation to scatter into the other rooms, but apprehension is the strangest thing. They couldnt move.
 
 Again. Open up!
 
 Isaac stood and walked to the door. The wood was alive, still humming from the beating it had just been given. He looked back at the faces naked with fear, turned the lock, and opened the door.
 
 As expected, it was a Nazi. In uniform.
 
 Never.
 
 That was Maxs first response.
 
 He clung to his mothers hand and that of Sarah, the nearest of his cousins. I wont leave. If we all cant go, I dont go, either.
 
 He was lying.
 
 When he was pushed out by the rest of his family, the relief struggled inside him like an obscenity. It was something he didnt want to feel, but nonetheless, he felt it with such gusto it made him want to throw up. How could he? How could he?
 
 But he did.
 
 Bring nothing, Walter told him. Just what youre wearing. Ill give you the rest.
 
 Max. It was his mother.
 
 From a drawer, she took an old piece of paper and stuffed it in his jacket pocket. If ever. . . She held him one last time, by the elbows. This could be your last hope.
 
 He looked into her aging face and kissed her, very hard, on the lips.
 
 Come on. Walter pulled at him as the rest of the family said their goodbyes and gave him money and a few valuables. Its chaos out there, and chaos is what we need.
 
 They left, without looking back.
 
 It tortured him.
 
 If only hed turned for one last look at his family as he left the apartment. Perhaps then the guilt would not have been so heavy. No final goodbye.
 
 No final grip of the eyes.
 
 Nothing but goneness.
 
 For the next two years, he remained in hiding, in an empty storeroom. It was in a building where Walter had worked in previous years. There was very little food. There was plenty of suspicion. The remaining Jews with money in the neighborhood were emigrating. The Jews without money were also trying, but without much success. Maxs family fell into the latter category. Walter checked on them occasionally, as inconspicuously as he could. One afternoon, when he visited, someone else opened the door.
 
 When Max heard the news, his body felt like it was being screwed up into a ball, like a page littered with mistakes. Like garbage.
 
 Yet each day, he managed to unravel and straighten himself, disgusted and thankful. Wrecked, but somehow not torn into pieces.
 
 Halfway through 1939, just over six months into the period of hiding, they decided that a new course of action needed to be taken. They examined the piece of paper Max was handed upon his desertion. Thats righthis desertion, not only his escape. That was how he viewed it, amid the grotesquerie of his relief. We already know what was written on that piece of paper:
 

ONE NAME, ONE ADDRESS
 Hans Hubermann
 Himmel Street 33, Molching
 

 
 Its getting worse, Walter told Max. Anytime now, they could find us out. There was much hunching in the dark. We dont know what might happen. I might get caught. You might need to find that place. . . . Im too scared to ask anyone for help here. They might put me in. There was only one solution. Ill go down there and find this man. If hes turned into a Naziwhich is very likelyIll just turn around. At least we know then, richtig?
 
 Max gave him every last pfennig to make the trip, and a few days later, when Walter returned, they embraced before he held his breath. And?
 
 Walter nodded. Hes good. He still plays that accordion your mother told you aboutyour fathers. Hes not a member of the party. He gave me money. At this stage, Hans Hubermann was only a list. Hes fairly poor, hes married, and theres a kid.
 
 This sparked Maxs attention even further. How old?
 
 Ten. You cant have everything.
 
 Yes. Kids have big mouths.
 
 Were lucky as it is.
 
 They sat in silence awhile. It was Max who disturbed it.
 
 He must already hate me, huh?
 
 I dont think so. He gave me the money, didnt he? He said a promise is a promise.
 
 A week later, a letter came. Hans notified Walter Kugler that he would try to send things to help whenever he could. There was a one-page map of Molching and Greater Munich, as well as a direct route from Pasing (the more reliable train station) to his front door. In his letter, the last words were obvious.
 
 Be careful.
 
 Midway through May 1940, Mein Kampf arrived, with a key taped to the inside cover.
 
 The mans a genius, Max decided, but there was still a shudder when he thought about traveling to Munich. Clearly, he wished, along with the other parties involved, that the journey would not have to be made at all.
 
 You dont always get what you wish for.
 
 Especially in Nazi Germany.
 
 Again, time passed.
 
 The war expanded.
 
 Max remained hidden from the world in another empty room.
 
 Until the inevitable.
 
 Walter was notified that he was being sent to Poland, to continue the assertion of Germanys authority over both the Poles and Jews alike. One was not much better than the other. The time had come.
 
 Max made his way to Munich and Molching, and now he sat in a strangers kitchen, asking for the help he craved and suffering the condemnation he felt he deserved.
 
 Hans Hubermann shook his hand and introduced himself.
 
 He made him some coffee in the dark.
 
 The girl had been gone quite a while, but now some more footsteps had approached arrival. The wildcard.
 
 In the darkness, all three of them were completely isolated. They all stared. Only the woman spoke.