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woman I should be, what a cad, what a heartless, vulgar beast! Is that what you
think I am? "
A poser.
" Anyhow it doesn't matter (в любом случае, это не важно). I ought never to have
accepted valuable presents from you (мне не следовало /никогда/ принимать от
тебя ценные подарки) and allowed you to lend me money (и позволять тебе
ссужать меня деньгами). It's put me in a rotten position (это поставило меня в
чудовищное положение). Why I thought you despised me (почему я подумал,
что ты меня презираешь) is that I can't help feeling (так это потому, что я не
могу не думать) that you've got a right to (что у тебя есть на это право). The
fact is (дело в том, что) I can't afford to run around with people (что я не могу
общаться с людьми) who are so much richer than I am (которые настолько
богаче меня). I was a fool to think I could (я был дураком, когда думал, что
смогу). It's been fun (это было забавным) and I've had a grand time (и я
замечательно проводил время), but now I'm through (но теперь, с меня хватит;
to be through — закончить, завершить, порвать отношения). I'm not going to
see you any more (я не намерен с тобой больше видеться). "
She gave a deep sigh (она издала глубокий вздох).
" You don't care two hoots for me (тебе совершенно наплевать на меня; hoot —
крик, оклик; гудок). That's what that means (вот что все это значит). "
" That's not fair (это несправедливо). "
accept [qk'sept] despise [dIs'paIz] hoots [hu: ts]
" Anyhow it doesn't matter. I ought never to have accepted valuable presents from
you and allowed you to lend me money. It's put me in a rotten position. Why I
thought you despised me is that I can't help feeling that you've got a right to. The
fact is I can't afford to run around with people who are so much richer than I am. I
was a fool to think I could. It's been fun and I've had a grand time, but now I'm
through. I'm not going to see you any more. "
She gave a deep sigh.
" You don't care two hoots for me. That's what that means. "
" That's not fair. "
" You're everything in the world to me (ты для меня — все на этом свете). You
know that (и ты знаешь это). I'm so lonely and your friendship meant a great deal
to me (я так одинока, и твоя дружба означает так много для меня). I'm
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surrounded by hangers-on and parasites (я окружена прихлебателями и
дармоедами: «паразитами») and I knew you were disinterested (и я знала, что
ты — бескорыстен: «не заинтересован»). I felt I could rely on you (я
чувствовала, что я могу положиться на тебя). I so loved being with you (мне
так нравилось быть с тобой). You were the only person in the world (ты был
единственным человеком в мире) with whom I could be entirely myself (с
которым я могла бы полностью быть самой собой). Don't you know what a
pleasure it was to me (разве ты не знаешь, каким удовольствием для меня
было) to help you a little (оказать тебе небольшую помощь)? It wasn't for your
sake (не тебя ради) I made you little presents (я дарила тебе маленькие
подарки), it was for my own (а ради себя самой); it made me so happy to see you
using the things I'd given you (это доставляло мне настоящее счастье — видеть,
как ты пользуешься вещами, которые я тебе подарила). If you'd cared for me at
all (если бы ты любил меня, хоть чуть-чуть), they wouldn't have humiliated you
(они бы тебя нисколько не унизили), you'd have been touched to owe me
something (тебя бы это трогало — быть обязанным мне хоть в чем-то). "
hanger-on [" hxNq(r)'On] parasite ['pxrqsaIt] person ['pq: s(q)n]
" You're everything in the world to me. You know that. I'm so lonely and your
friendship meant a great deal to me. I'm surrounded by hangers-on and parasites
and I knew you were disinterested. I felt I could rely on you. I so loved being with
you. You were the only person in the world with whom I could be entirely myself.
Don't you know what a pleasure it was to me to help you a little? It wasn't for your
sake I made you little presents, it was for my own; it made me so happy to see you
using the things I'd given you. If you'd cared for me, at all they wouldn't have
humiliated you, you'd have been touched to owe me something. "
She turned her eyes on him once more (он снова перевела на него свой взгляд).
She could always cry easily (она всегда могла легко заплакать), and she was
really so miserable now (и она на самом деле сейчас была так несчастна) that
she did not have to make even a small effort (что ей не пришлось приложить и
малейшего усилия). He had never seen her cry before (он никогда раньше не
видел ее плачущей). She could cry, without sobbing (она умела плакать без
всхлипываний), her wonderful dark eyes wide open (/с/ широко распахнутыми
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прекрасными темными глазами), with a face that was almost rigid (с почти
неподвижным: «жестким» лицом). Great heavy tears ran down it (крупные
тяжелые слезы стекали по нему /лицу/). And her quietness, the immobility of
the tragic body (и ее спокойствие, трагическая неподвижность фигуры:
«неподвижность трагического тела»), were terribly moving (были ужасно
трогательны). She hadn't cried like that (она так не плакала) since she cried in
The Stricken Heart (с тех самых пор, когда плакала /когда играла/ в «Раненом
сердце»; stricken — пораженный /болезнью, горем и т. п. /).
effort ['efqt] immobility [" ImqV'bIlItI] stricken ['strIkqn]
She turned her eyes on him once more. She could always cry easily, and she was
really so miserable now that she did not have to make even a small effort. He had
never seen her cry before. She could cry, without sobbing, her wonderful dark eyes
wide open, with a face that was almost rigid. Great heavy tears ran down it. And
her quietness, the immobility of the tragic body, were terribly moving. She hadn't
cried like that since she cried in The Stricken Heart.
Christ, how that play had shattered her (Господи, как же тот спектакль
выматывал ее: «подрывал ее силы»). She was not looking at Tom (она не
смотрела на Тома), she was looking straight in front of her (она смотрела прямо
перед собой); she was really distracted with grief (она на самом деле обезумела
от горя; distracted — сбитый с толку, расстроенный), but, what was it (но, что
же это было такое)? Another self within her knew what she was doing (другое ее
собственное «я» внутри нее, знало, что она делала), a self that shared in her
unhappiness and yet watched its expression («я», которое разделяло с ней ее
несчастье и, в тоже самое время, наблюдала за его /несчастья/ выражением).
She felt him go white (она почувствовала, что он побледнел; white — белый,
бледный, седой). She felt a sudden anguish wring his heartstrings (она
почувствовала, как внезапная мука стала терзать струны его души;
heartstrings — сердечные струны, heart — сердце; string — веревка; струна),
she felt that his flesh and blood could not support the intolerable pain of hers (она
почувствовала, что его плоть и кровь не могли больше выносить ее
нестерпимые муки).
" Julia (Джулия). "
grief [gri: f] heartstrings ['hQ: t" strINz] intolerable [In'tOl(q)rqb(q)l]
Christ, how that play had shattered her. She was not looking at Tom, she was
looking straight in front of her; she was really distracted with grief, but, what was
it? another self within her knew what she was doing, a self that shared in her un-
happiness and yet watched its expression. She felt him go white. She felt a sudden
anguish wring his heartstrings, she felt that his flesh and blood could not support
the intolerable pain of hers.
" Julia. "
His voice was broken (его голос прерывался: «был сломан»). She slowly turned
her liquid eyes on him (она медленно перевела свои влажные глаза на него). It
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was not a woman crying that he saw (не плачущую женщину он видел), it was
all the woe of humankind (это была воплощенная скорбь человечества), it was
the immeasurable, the inconsolable grief (это было неизмеримое, неутешное
горе) that is the lot of man (которое и есть истинная доля /каждого/ человека;
lot — жребий, судьба). He threw himself down on his knees (он бросился на
колени) and took her in his arms (и принял ее в свои объятья). He was shattered
(он был потрясен).
" Dearest (дорогая), dearest (любимая). "
For a minute she did not move (с минуту она не двигалась). It was as if she did
not know that he was there (казалось, она не замечала: «не знала», что он был
рядом: «там»). He kissed her streaming eyes (он целовал ее плачущие:
«слезящиеся» глаза) and with his mouth sought hers (и своими губами: «ртом»
искал ее /губы/). She gave it to him (она подставила: «дала» их ему /для
поцелуя/) as though she were powerless (как будто совсем обессилев; power —
мощь), as though, scarcely conscious of what was befalling her (как если бы, с
трудом осознавая, что происходит с ней), she had no will left (у нее уже не
осталось воли).
immeasurable [I'meZ(q)rqb(q)l] inconsolable [" Inkqn'sqVlqb(q)l]
scarcely ['skeqslI]
His voice was broken. She slowly turned her liquid eyes on him. It was not a
woman crying that he saw, it was all the woe of humankind, it was the
immeasurable, the inconsolable grief that is the lot of man. He threw himself down
on his knees and took her in his arms. He was shattered.
" Dearest, dearest. "
For a minute she did not move. It was as if she did not know that he was there. He
kissed her streaming eyes and with his mouth sought hers. She gave it to him as
though she were powerless, as though, scarcely conscious of what was befalling
her, she had no will left.
With a scarcely perceptible movement (едва различимым движением) she
pressed her body to his (она прижалась к нему: «прижала свое тело к его») and
gradually her arms found their way round his neck (и постепенно ее руки обвили
его шею: «нашли свою дорогу вокруг его шеи»). She lay in his arms (она
лежала в его объятиях), not exactly inert (не то, чтобы уж совсем
неподвижная), but as though all the strength, all the vitality, had gone out of her
(но так, как будто вся ее сила, ее жизненная энергия покинули ее: «вышли из
нее»). In his mouth he tasted the saltness of her tears (в его рту она
почувствовала соленый вкус: «соленость» от своих слез). At last, exhausted
(наконец, /совершенно/ измученная), clinging to him with soft arms (держась за
него мягкими руками) she sank back on the sofa (она откинулась на софе). His
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lips clung to hers (его губы прильнули к ее губам).
You would never have thought (никто никогда бы и не подумал) had you seen
her a quarter of an hour later (увидев ее четвертью часа позже), so quietly gay,
flushed a little (такой сдержанно веселой, слегка раскрасневшейся), that so
short a while before (что такой короткий период времени тому назад) she had
passed through such a tempest of weeping (она прошла через такие бурные
рыдания; tempest — буря, потрясение). They each had a whisky and soda and a
cigarette (каждый из них выпил по виски с содовой и /выкурили/ по сигарете)
and looked at one another with fond eyes (и смотрели друг на друга
влюбленными глазами).
" He's a sweet little thing (он такой милый малыш), " she thought (думала она).
perceptible [pq'septqb(q)l] exhausted [Ig'zO: stId] whisky ['wIskI]
With a scarcely perceptible movement she pressed her body to his and gradually
her arms found their way round his neck. She lay in his arms, not exactly inert, but
as though all the strength, all the vitality, had gone out of her. In his mouth he
tasted the saltness of her tears. At last, exhausted, clinging to him with soft arms
she sank back on the sofa. His lips clung to hers.
You would never have thought had you seen her a quarter of an hour later, so
quietly gay, flushed a little, that so short a while before she had passed through
such a tempest of weeping. They each had a whisky and soda and a cigarette and
looked at one another with fond eyes.
" He's a sweet little thing, " she thought.
It occurred to her (ей пришло в голову) that she would give him a treat (что она
доставит ему удовольствие).
" The Duke and Duchess of Rickaby are coming to the play tonight (герцог и
герцогиня Рикби придут сегодня вечером на спектакль) and we're going to
have supper at the Savoy (а потом мы пойдем ужинать в «Савой»). I suppose
you wouldn't come, would you (я полагаю, что ты не захочешь пойти /с нами/,
или пойдешь)? I want a man badly to make a fourth (мне просто необходим
мужчина, который составит мне компанию: «станет четвертым»). "
" If you'd like me to, of course I will (если ты хочешь, чтобы я пошел, я конечно
согласен: «пойду»). "
The heightened colour on his cheeks (проявившийся румянец на его щеках; to
heighten — повышать, усиливать, делать цвет более ярким) told her how
excited he was (сказал ей, как взволнован он был /возможностью/) to meet such
distinguished persons (встретиться с такими знатными персонами). She did not
tell him (она не сказала ему) that the Rickabys would go anywhere for a free meal
(что супруги Рикби пошли бы куда угодно, за бесплатное угощение; free —
свободный, вольный, открытый, даровой). Tom took back the presents (Том
забрал назад все подарки) that he had returned to her (что он до этого вернул
ей) rather shyly, but he took them (почти что робко, но он взял их).
heighten [haItn] distinguished [dIs'tINgwISt] anywhere ['enIweq]
It occurred to her that she would give him a treat.
" The Duke and Duchess of Rickaby are coming to the play tonight and we're going
to have supper at the Savoy. I suppose you wouldn't come, would you? I want a
man badly to make a fourth. "
" If you'd like me to, of course I will. "
The heightened colour on his cheeks told her how excited he was to meet such
distinguished persons. She did not tell him that the Rickabys would go anywhere
for a free meal. Tom took back the presents that he had returned to her rather
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shyly, but he took them.
When he had gone (когда он ушел) she sat down at the dressing-table (она села к
туалетному столику) and had a good look at herself (и внимательно себя
оглядела).
" How lucky I am (как удачно: «какая я счастливая») that I can cry without my
eyelids swelling (что я могу плакать, а мои веки не опухают: «без распухания
век»; without — зд. указывает на отсутствие чего-либо)" she said (сказала
она). She massaged them a little (она слегка их помассировала). " All the same,
what mugs men are (и все таки, какие же мужчины простофили). "
She was happy (она была счастлива). Everything would be all right now (теперь
все будет хорошо). She had got him back (она заполучила его назад). But
somewhere, at the back of her mind (но где-то, в глубине души: «сознания,
ума») or in the bottom of her heart (или в глубине ее сердца), was a feeling of
ever so slight contempt for Tom (/у нее/ было чувство легкого презрения к
Тому) because he was such a simple fool (из-за того, что он был таким простым
дурачком).
swelling ['swelIN] massage ['mxsQ: Z] bottom ['bOtqm]
When he had gone she sat down at the dressing-table and had a good look at
herself.
" How lucky I am that I can cry without my eyelids swelling, " she said. She
massaged them a little. " All the same, what mugs men are. "
She was happy. Everything would be all right now. She had got him back. But
somewhere, at the back of her mind or in the bottom of her heart, was a feeling of
ever so slight contempt for Tom because he was such a simple fool.
THEIR quarrel (их ссора), destroying in some strange way the barrier between
them (разрушив неким странным образом барьер между ними), brought them
closer together (еще больше сблизил их; to bring (brought) — приносить,
приводить, влечь за собой). Tom offered less resistance (Том сопротивлялся
меньше: «оказал меньше сопротивления») than she had expected (чем она
ожидала) when she mooted once more the question of the flat (когда она снова
подняла вопрос о квартире; once more — еще раз). It looked as though (было
похоже, что: «это выглядело как если бы»), after their reconciliation (после их
примирения), having taken back her presents (забрав назад ее подарки) and
consented to forget the loan (и согласившись забыть /свой/ долг; loan — заем,
ссуда, что-либо данное взаймы), he had put aside his moral scruples (он
отбросил: «отложил в сторону» свои /моральные/ угрызения совести). They
had a lot of fun furnishing it (они здорово повеселились, пока обставляли ее
/квартиру/). The chauffeur's wife kept it clean for him (жена шофера
поддерживала ее в чистоте /для него/) and cooked his breakfast (и готовила его
завтрак). Julia had a key (у Джулии был ключ) and would sometimes let herself
in (и /она/ иногда заходила: «открывала дверь и входила») and sit by herself in
the little sitting-room (и сидела одна, в маленькой гостиной; by oneself — в
одиночестве, без посторонней помощи) till he came back from his office (до
тех пор, пока он не возвращался из конторы: «офиса»).
destroy [dIs'trOI] resistance [rI'zIstqns] reconciliation [" rekqnsIlI'eIS(q)n]
THEIR quarrel, destroying in some strange way the barrier between them, brought
them closer together. Tom offered less resistance than she had expected when she
mooted once more the question of the flat. It looked as though, after their
reconciliation, having taken back her presents and consented to forget the loan, he
had put aside his moral scruples. They had a lot of fun furnishing it. The
chauffeur's wife kept it clean for him and cooked his breakfast. Julia had a key and
would sometimes let herself in and sit by herself in the little sitting-room till he
came back from his office.
They supped together two or three times a week and danced (они ужинали вместе
два или три раза в неделю и танцевали), then drove back to the flat in a taxi (и
затем ехали назад, в квартиру, на такси). Julia enjoyed a happy autumn
(Джулия наслаждалась этой счастливой осенью). The play they put on was a
success (спектакль, который они поставили, был успешен). She felt alert and
young (она чувствовала себя живой и молодой; alert — бдительный,
настороже, резвый). Roger was coming home at Christmas (Роджер должен
был приехать домой на Рождество), but only for a fortnight (но всего на две
недели), and was then going to Vienna (и затем уезжал в Вену). Julia expected
him to monopolize Tom (Джулия ожидала, что он полностью завладеет
/вниманием/ Тома: «монополизирует Тома») and she was determined not to
mind (и она была решительно настроена не обращать на это внимания). Youth
naturally appealed to youth (молодость естественно влечет к молодости) and
she told herself (сказа она себе) that there was no reason for her to feel anxious (и
не было ни какой причины, чтобы она чувствовала беспокойство) if for a few
days (если на несколько дней) the two of them were so wrapped up in one
another (эти двое будут настолько поглощены друг другом; to wrap —
укутывать, обертывать, to wrap up — зд. полностью отдаваться чему-
либо) that Tom had no thought for her (что Том не будет о ней думать). She held
him now (теперь она имела над ним власть: «она держала его сейчас»). He
was proud to be her lover (он гордился тем, что был ее любовником), it gave
him confidence in himself (это придавало ему уверенность в себе), and he was
pleased to be on familiar terms (и он был доволен, что был на дружеской ноге;
to be on familiar terms with smb. — быть в приятельских отношениях, familiar
— близкий, интимный, давно знакомый), with a large number of more or less
distinguished persons (с большим числом более или менее известных людей)
whom after all he only knew through her (которых, в конце концов, он знал
благодаря ей: «через нее»).
autumn ['O: tqm] Christmas ['krIsmqs] familiar [fq'mIlIq]
They supped together two or three times a week and danced, then drove back to the
flat in a taxi. Julia enjoyed a happy autumn. The play they put on was a success.
She felt alert and young. Roger was coming home at Christmas, but only for a
fortnight, and was then going to Vienna. Julia expected him to monopolize Tom
and she was determined not to mind. Youth naturally appealed to youth and she
told herself that there was no reason for her to feel anxious if for a few days the
two of them were so wrapped up in one another that Tom had no thought for her.
She held him now. He was proud to be her lover, it gave him confidence in
himself, and he was pleased to be on familiar terms with a large number of more or
less distinguished persons whom after all he only knew through her.
He was anxious now to join a good club (он страстно стремился теперь стать
членом какого-нибудь хорошего клуба; to join — соединять, присоединять,
входить в компанию) and Julia was preparing the ground (и Джулия
подготавливала почву). Charles had never refused her anything (Чарльз никогда
ей ни в чем не отказывал), and with tact she was certain (и, применив весь такт,
она была уверена) that she could wheedle him (что она сможет подольстится к
нему и уговорить) into proposing Tom for one of those to which he belonged
(поручиться за Тома в одном из тех /клубов/, к которым он сам принадлежал;
to propose — вносить предложение, предлагать чью-либо кандидатуру). It
was a new and delicious sensation for Tom (новым и восхитительным
ощущением для Тома была /возможность/) to have money to spend (тратить
деньги: «иметь деньги, которые тратить»); she encouraged him to be
extravagant (она поощряла его быть расточительным); she had a notion that he
would get used to living in a certain way (она держалась того мнения, что он
привыкнет к определенному образу жизни: «жить определенным образом»)
and then would realize that he could not do without her (и затем поймет, что он
не может без нее обойтись; to do without smb., smth. — обходиться без кого-
либо, чего-либо).
" Of course it can't last (конечно же, это не может продолжаться /долго/), " she
told herself (говорила она себе), " but when it comes to an end (но, когда это
подойдет к концу) it will have been a wonderful experience for him (это будет
прекрасным опытом для него). It'll really have made a man of him (это
действительно сделает из него мужчину). "
ground [graVnd] wheedle ['wi: dl] encourage [In'kArIdZ]
He was anxious now to join a good club and Julia was preparing the ground.
Charles had never refused her anything, and with tact she was certain that she
could wheedle him into proposing Tom for one of those to which he belonged. It
was a new and delicious sensation for Tom to have money to spend; she
encouraged him to be extravagant; she had a notion that he would get used to
living in a certain way and then would realize that he could not do without her.
" Of course it can't last, " she told herself, " but when it comes to an end it will have
been a wonderful experience for him. It'll really have made a man of him. "
But though she told herself that it could not last (но, хотя они и говорила себе,
что это не может продолжаться долго) she did not see really why it shouldn't
(она не видела причин, почему бы этому и не /продолжаться/). As the years
went by and he grew older (когда пройдут года, и он постареет) there wouldn't
be any particular difference between them (не будет такой уж особенной
разницы между ними). He would no longer be so very young (он больше не
будет таким уж /очень/ молодым) in ten or fifteen years (через десять или
пятнадцать лет) and she would be just the same age as she was now (а она
останется в том же самом возрасте, что и сейчас). They were very comfortable
together (им вместе было так хорошо: «удобно»). Men were creatures of habit
(мужчины — это рабы привычки; creature — создание, творение, существо);
that gave women such a hold on them (и это давало женщинам такую власть
над ними; hold — удерживание, захват, влияние). She did not feel a day older
than he (она не чувствовала себя и на день старше, чем он), and she was
convinced (и она была убеждена) that the disparity in their ages (что разница в
/их/ возрасте; disparity — несоответствие, неравенство) had never even
occurred to him (никогда ему даже в голову не приходила). It was true that on
this point (было однако, правдой то, что по этому поводу) she had once had a
moment's disquietude (был у нее однажды момент беспокойства).
particular [pq'tIkjVlq] creature ['kri: tSq] disparity [dIs'pxrItI]
disquietude [dIs'kwaIItju: d]
But though she told herself that it could not last she did not see really why it
shouldn't. As the years went by and he grew older there wouldn't be any particular
difference between them. He would no longer be so very young in ten or fifteen
years and she would be just the same age as she was now. They were very
comfortable together. Men were creatures of habit; that gave women such a hold
on them. She did not feel a day older than he, and she was convinced that the
disparity in their ages had never even occurred to him. It was true that on this point
she had once had a moment's disquietude.
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